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Saturday, February 27, 2010
YOU were so wrong
For so long.
Only tryna please YOURself.
Boy, you were caught up in your lust.
And I only meant well.
Uhuh, its all for the best,baby.
For so long.
Only tryna please YOURself.
Boy, you were caught up in your lust.
And I only meant well.
Uhuh, its all for the best,baby.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Why do we often hurt the ones we love the most?
I hate feeling like this. It takes a lot for me to express my feelings to people without bursting into tears. Whenever I feel this way, I would immediately be in a foul mood to avoid conversations in case it might lead to the problems that I am facing. I get angry at the slightest things, I get emotional and I get tired easily. I used to know how to deal with it. But it used to be easier. Things were never this bad. I used to be better off. I would run. I would swim. All alone to clear my head. But now, even doing that is difficult because of time constraint. So tell me how can I feel better? How I can get rid of everything when the
only way I knew seems impossible. This sucks to the lowest point of suckery. But I just discovered that the only way to get rid of
these is to cry.
So I cried. And cried. And cried. It helped. I felt better.
I'm better now. I hope I would be for the rest of the week. I hate showing attitude to people who are not involved. People who don't even know what the hell is going on.
Sorry guys.
I love you.
toodles.
XOXO
only way I knew seems impossible. This sucks to the lowest point of suckery. But I just discovered that the only way to get rid of
these is to cry.So I cried. And cried. And cried. It helped. I felt better.
I'm better now. I hope I would be for the rest of the week. I hate showing attitude to people who are not involved. People who don't even know what the hell is going on.
Sorry guys.
I love you.
toodles.
XOXO
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Slept so much, I'm having a headache. If that is ever possible.
I was talking to some of my friends after school today and we were talking about our future bla3. And we realised that if we were to follow this career path and stay at the same position, it would be non stop lesson plans ok?! haha,Horrific idea.
Anyways, I can't wait for March. When it would all be over.
Why do they intend to drill us like this and then get disappointed when we do not perform up to their expectations for the examinations? Oh,I forgot. They have high standards of their CREAM OF THE CROP right. Opps, lupe uh.
DANG.
But whilst I was otw back home just now, exhausted thinking about the oncoming assignments and EXAMS, I saw my mom. And for that
instance, I thought to myself, all this tiredness and me pushing myself would be worth it to make them proud.
:)
I am thankful for these constant reminders in my life. Cos' I need them alot. I'm not the kind of person who has the 'will to succeed and overcome all odds in them' like 24/7. Nope. I need constant motivations. And just thinking about how I ended up where I am now is motivation enough for me.
Loves you.
toodles.
XOXO
I was talking to some of my friends after school today and we were talking about our future bla3. And we realised that if we were to follow this career path and stay at the same position, it would be non stop lesson plans ok?! haha,Horrific idea.
Anyways, I can't wait for March. When it would all be over.
Why do they intend to drill us like this and then get disappointed when we do not perform up to their expectations for the examinations? Oh,I forgot. They have high standards of their CREAM OF THE CROP right. Opps, lupe uh.
DANG.
But whilst I was otw back home just now, exhausted thinking about the oncoming assignments and EXAMS, I saw my mom. And for that
instance, I thought to myself, all this tiredness and me pushing myself would be worth it to make them proud. :)
I am thankful for these constant reminders in my life. Cos' I need them alot. I'm not the kind of person who has the 'will to succeed and overcome all odds in them' like 24/7. Nope. I need constant motivations. And just thinking about how I ended up where I am now is motivation enough for me.
Loves you.
toodles.
XOXO
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
heyo lovelies.
A belated Valentine's wish to everyone.
For those of you, who are attached, hope you had a sweet and memorable day with your partner.
And for those single people out there, hope you had a fantabulous time lazing at home or soaking up attention from admirers! ;D
Moving on, as for now, I am sooo glad assignments are over. Like, finally. I AM NOT GONNA THINK ABOUT THE COMING UP ASSIGNMENTS. I AM NOT GONNA THINK ABOUT EXAMS for tonight. I want to have a peaceful night's sleep.haha.
So, on Fri, parents went off to KL. So we basically had the house to ourselves. Thought of going out for supper and spending the night outside but I ruined it by falling asleep at ten freaking o'clock. Hey, I was tired from schooool!
So, sat night, after we got back from gran's place, we went out to slack. I and sis bought some vodka home. First time for me. And it was niceeee. :D
Spent the whole day at home yesterday and IT WAS GOOOOD. haha. I was just lazing in front of the telly and drifting off to sleep on my bed.
Just went to the library cos I finally have time for myself to rejuvenate my inner self.haha. Thank god the library was open. Spent most of my time there alone. I love times like this. And don’t call me EMO or LONER just cos I like going out alone. Everyone needs their alone time every once in a while. As for me, I just need a lil bit more :)
It’s been sooo long since I went jogging that I think the next time I run, it would be torturous for me. Seriously.
Anyways, had a long chat with his friend the other day. And friend asked me how is he and everything. I don’t really have any idea since I haven't been in contact with him..And everything I heard from friend that day came as a shock to me. But it also justifies my reason to not contact him for this period of time till God knows when. I yearn to talk to him like a normal friend. Like how we were. But when I asked friend if he thinks we would ever be like that, he said no, because of what HE told friend. I am disappointed, but I’m not ready to get tied down again. I’m loving my life being single now..Plus all the crazy load of assignments that i would be having, I really don’t think it’s a good idea for me to rekindle whatever we had.
oh well.
If he still does not intend to listen to advices from me or his mother, then it's up to him how he wants to lead his life. Miserable, angry, moody. I can't be there to tell him what's right and what's wrong everyday. I can't be there to deal with his insecurities. Then who's gonna deal with my insecurities? My fears?
Forget it.
When I can find a guy who can deal with this, I'll let you know. Which is highly unlikely ;)
ayts. Gotta study for HRA.
Toodles~
love you.
XOXO.
A belated Valentine's wish to everyone.
For those of you, who are attached, hope you had a sweet and memorable day with your partner.
And for those single people out there, hope you had a fantabulous time lazing at home or soaking up attention from admirers! ;D
Moving on, as for now, I am sooo glad assignments are over. Like, finally. I AM NOT GONNA THINK ABOUT THE COMING UP ASSIGNMENTS. I AM NOT GONNA THINK ABOUT EXAMS for tonight. I want to have a peaceful night's sleep.haha.
So, on Fri, parents went off to KL. So we basically had the house to ourselves. Thought of going out for supper and spending the night outside but I ruined it by falling asleep at ten freaking o'clock. Hey, I was tired from schooool!
So, sat night, after we got back from gran's place, we went out to slack. I and sis bought some vodka home. First time for me. And it was niceeee. :D
Spent the whole day at home yesterday and IT WAS GOOOOD. haha. I was just lazing in front of the telly and drifting off to sleep on my bed.
Just went to the library cos I finally have time for myself to rejuvenate my inner self.haha. Thank god the library was open. Spent most of my time there alone. I love times like this. And don’t call me EMO or LONER just cos I like going out alone. Everyone needs their alone time every once in a while. As for me, I just need a lil bit more :)
It’s been sooo long since I went jogging that I think the next time I run, it would be torturous for me. Seriously.
Anyways, had a long chat with his friend the other day. And friend asked me how is he and everything. I don’t really have any idea since I haven't been in contact with him..And everything I heard from friend that day came as a shock to me. But it also justifies my reason to not contact him for this period of time till God knows when. I yearn to talk to him like a normal friend. Like how we were. But when I asked friend if he thinks we would ever be like that, he said no, because of what HE told friend. I am disappointed, but I’m not ready to get tied down again. I’m loving my life being single now..Plus all the crazy load of assignments that i would be having, I really don’t think it’s a good idea for me to rekindle whatever we had.
oh well.
If he still does not intend to listen to advices from me or his mother, then it's up to him how he wants to lead his life. Miserable, angry, moody. I can't be there to tell him what's right and what's wrong everyday. I can't be there to deal with his insecurities. Then who's gonna deal with my insecurities? My fears?
Forget it.
When I can find a guy who can deal with this, I'll let you know. Which is highly unlikely ;)
ayts. Gotta study for HRA.
Toodles~
love you.
XOXO.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
God gave you shoes that fit you so get innit. Be yourself.
Your life is your garden, your thoughts are your seeds.
If your life isn't awesome, you've been watering the weeds.
I believe the personality and the soul is what makes a person beautiful, it does not always have to be the physical appearance.
Loving is not just looking at each other, it's looking in the same direction.
OH PS:
This Valentine's Day, love is in the air...DARN, I haven't got my gas mask out!
If your life isn't awesome, you've been watering the weeds.
I believe the personality and the soul is what makes a person beautiful, it does not always have to be the physical appearance.
Loving is not just looking at each other, it's looking in the same direction.
OH PS:
This Valentine's Day, love is in the air...DARN, I haven't got my gas mask out!
Sunday, February 7, 2010
I miss how we used to talk all the time and wish we can go back in time to do it all over again, without any akwardness.No one will ever understand how much i miss you, how much i still care about you,no one will ever get it.
I have a bad feeling. I can't find my card.I just hope you're alright.
Take Care wherever you are.
XOXO.
I have a bad feeling. I can't find my card.I just hope you're alright.
Take Care wherever you are.
XOXO.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
If a guy calls you cute, he is looking at your face.
If a guy calls you hot,he is looking at your body but
if a guy calls you beautiful,he is looking at your heart.
I totally agree with this,except for the part about a guy calling you beautiful. Some guys looking at a girl's face,body OR face AND body may say its beautiful isn't it?
I hate how some guys think they can have your attention whenever they want it. Dont forget girls aren't xbox games, we're not made to be thrown to the side when you've found a new and more interesting one.
Its a common fact that human beings are hypocrites. But can it really be helped? For example, if you have a colleague that you HAVE to work with but you know he/she doesn't like you and its a mutual feeling of hate between the both of you, wouldn't you still try to put ur differences aside and be nice to each other? Isn't this hypocrisy? Or is it different from being a hypocrite because it actually benefits you? Is there such a thing as beneficial hypocrisy? At the same time, when you are doing this whole act of being nice to each other, you would know for yourself that what you're doing is wrong and fake. But you'd continue doing it. Is it because you wouldn't want to complicate issues? Maybe it all depends on the situation. Say if you have to work with the person you hate the most in your office to save the world, then obviously, hypocrisy is the way to go. But what if its something as minor as say, getting to know a new person. Would you try to like the same things as they do and not do what they do not do just because you want their acceptance? Please do not cringe at this statement. I am sure that almost everyone in this world has been guilty of this at some point in their life. Whether or not they have realised the superficiality of it all and stopped, that is a different story. But, it is normal right? Then why do I always see bold statements that are supposed to be "original" coming from MAINLY girls saying things like,
"THIS IS ME. LOVE IT OR LEAVE IT."
or
"I AM WHO I AM. YOU CAN'T CHANGE ME"
or
"I AM UNIQUE. DO NOT TRY TO CHANGE ME COS I WON'T CHANGE FOR ANYONE."
You know, statements along this line. I admit, it makes one feel good. Like, they're being true to themselves and daring the world to accept them for who they are because they are fierce ladies who
won't change for anyone. bla3.
Ok, I'm being honest here. I am guilty of the statement above. I do not like people trying to change me. I am who I am. But, this only applies to CERTAIN situations. Say, if someone does not like my fashion sense, my character, my voice, my face..this are things that I cannot be bothered to bother with. But habits? Priorities? Etiquttes?
Now, this is definitely something that I would change if someone I know does not like it. Don't ask me why. I just feel this way. But at least I try. I try to be honest with myself as much as I can but when this kinda situations come about, yes, I would change myself to adapt. Human nature? haha. I don't know. But I have a strong suspicion it is. Anyways, now that I have cleared my mind and set a distinction between what I would change and what I would not, I wonder what you people would change or would not. Please,I BEG OF YOU, don't claim that there's nothing you would change for anyone. Then, you'll only being a hypocrite to your ownself. Which is much worse yea?
Gnites lovelies.
XOXO.
If a guy calls you hot,he is looking at your body but
if a guy calls you beautiful,he is looking at your heart.
I totally agree with this,except for the part about a guy calling you beautiful. Some guys looking at a girl's face,body OR face AND body may say its beautiful isn't it?
I hate how some guys think they can have your attention whenever they want it. Dont forget girls aren't xbox games, we're not made to be thrown to the side when you've found a new and more interesting one.
Its a common fact that human beings are hypocrites. But can it really be helped? For example, if you have a colleague that you HAVE to work with but you know he/she doesn't like you and its a mutual feeling of hate between the both of you, wouldn't you still try to put ur differences aside and be nice to each other? Isn't this hypocrisy? Or is it different from being a hypocrite because it actually benefits you? Is there such a thing as beneficial hypocrisy? At the same time, when you are doing this whole act of being nice to each other, you would know for yourself that what you're doing is wrong and fake. But you'd continue doing it. Is it because you wouldn't want to complicate issues? Maybe it all depends on the situation. Say if you have to work with the person you hate the most in your office to save the world, then obviously, hypocrisy is the way to go. But what if its something as minor as say, getting to know a new person. Would you try to like the same things as they do and not do what they do not do just because you want their acceptance? Please do not cringe at this statement. I am sure that almost everyone in this world has been guilty of this at some point in their life. Whether or not they have realised the superficiality of it all and stopped, that is a different story. But, it is normal right? Then why do I always see bold statements that are supposed to be "original" coming from MAINLY girls saying things like,
"THIS IS ME. LOVE IT OR LEAVE IT."
or
"I AM WHO I AM. YOU CAN'T CHANGE ME"
or
"I AM UNIQUE. DO NOT TRY TO CHANGE ME COS I WON'T CHANGE FOR ANYONE."
You know, statements along this line. I admit, it makes one feel good. Like, they're being true to themselves and daring the world to accept them for who they are because they are fierce ladies who
won't change for anyone. bla3. Ok, I'm being honest here. I am guilty of the statement above. I do not like people trying to change me. I am who I am. But, this only applies to CERTAIN situations. Say, if someone does not like my fashion sense, my character, my voice, my face..this are things that I cannot be bothered to bother with. But habits? Priorities? Etiquttes?
Now, this is definitely something that I would change if someone I know does not like it. Don't ask me why. I just feel this way. But at least I try. I try to be honest with myself as much as I can but when this kinda situations come about, yes, I would change myself to adapt. Human nature? haha. I don't know. But I have a strong suspicion it is. Anyways, now that I have cleared my mind and set a distinction between what I would change and what I would not, I wonder what you people would change or would not. Please,I BEG OF YOU, don't claim that there's nothing you would change for anyone. Then, you'll only being a hypocrite to your ownself. Which is much worse yea?
Gnites lovelies.
XOXO.
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