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Friday, December 31, 2010
Happy New Year :)
Seems really fast and another year is coming to an end. Graduating next year and I'm so not prepared for whatever that's in store. Hopefully I can scrape through attachment and get there. Please. Take it as a 2011 wish can. :D
And they tell me I shouldn't be so egoistic. But you should know better than to push me when its that time of the month. Yes, I'm your typical girl, I have terrible mood swings and irritating outbursts of emotions. Not forgetting the pain. Treat me well and it will do both of us good.
But I'm just proud of myself for not showng attitude with the careless way you carried yourself. It wasn't giving in or giving you a chance, I just felt appreciative of the effort you took for the day to happen and grateful. Don't count on it the next time ayts.
Oh yea,still trying to figure out that sexy part. -_-
Nevertheless, I'm not going to wait up for you. I'm sure 5 minutes isn't too much to ask for. No intentions to tolerate,I'm not obliged to. I just don't like waiting.Period.
You can only see a man or woman's breeding from the way they behave in a quarrel.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
So subtle and civilised.
I like it and hate it.
I'm not supposed to wait for you. So I won't. :)
I'll run while you try to catch alright.
I like it and hate it.
I'm not supposed to wait for you. So I won't. :)
I'll run while you try to catch alright.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Life is good I can't complain.
The moon's been gorgeous this past few nights. And I'm always noticing it whenever I'm around people I cherish.
:)
Looking forward to relaxing with classmates tomorrow. No doubt I'm going to go through the same questions and stress before that. Bah. Gotta get used to it.
Going off to Batam soon. I really hope something good comes out of this because so far, all I'm thinking is that this trip is too sudden, too 'in the middle of nowhere', too 'amidst all my preparations for attachment'. And the company isn't fabulous either. Guess it'll just mostly be me and my camera.
And despite my complaints that you're so undpredictable and annoying and distant and
all that other negative things, the interest you show and the effort you take can just blow all those negativitiy outta my mind. seriously. I'm being wary.
Never found someone who thinks the way I do with the same amount of sarcasm in your words and the same way of scolding people. Maybe I'm not as vulgar, but yea. About the same. And that surprising sexy part that comes out suddenly and so innocently. You won't know what I'm talking about cos I'm still trying to put my words together to describe that situation.
Ok.shut up my face.
Whatever, let's see how it goes.
We're just infatuated ;)
:)
Looking forward to relaxing with classmates tomorrow. No doubt I'm going to go through the same questions and stress before that. Bah. Gotta get used to it.
Going off to Batam soon. I really hope something good comes out of this because so far, all I'm thinking is that this trip is too sudden, too 'in the middle of nowhere', too 'amidst all my preparations for attachment'. And the company isn't fabulous either. Guess it'll just mostly be me and my camera.
And despite my complaints that you're so undpredictable and annoying and distant and
all that other negative things, the interest you show and the effort you take can just blow all those negativitiy outta my mind. seriously. I'm being wary.
Never found someone who thinks the way I do with the same amount of sarcasm in your words and the same way of scolding people. Maybe I'm not as vulgar, but yea. About the same. And that surprising sexy part that comes out suddenly and so innocently. You won't know what I'm talking about cos I'm still trying to put my words together to describe that situation.
Ok.shut up my face.
Whatever, let's see how it goes.
We're just infatuated ;)
Life is good I can
Sunday, December 12, 2010
If the grass is greener on the other side, the water bill must be higher ;)
You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh. But you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.
Interesting?
This has got me thinking.
And this made me literally laugh out loud,
You can't steal anyone from anybody. They were already prepared to leave, you're just the excuse.
Whatever~
If a guy finds reasons to lean in close to you during a conversation even though its not a secret, he likes you.
:O
Goodnight.
Interesting?
This has got me thinking.
And this made me literally laugh out loud,
You can't steal anyone from anybody. They were already prepared to leave, you're just the excuse.
Whatever~
If a guy finds reasons to lean in close to you during a conversation even though its not a secret, he likes you.
:O
Goodnight.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
This is your wake up call.
You underestimated the kinda chick I am.
Cos I don't have a problem, in finding someone else.
Maybe if I make you jealous, you'll finally start to wake up.
You're in tune to what I feel. But too bad you're clueless.
I'm focused but I'm losing control.
And maybe I should start to give you a chance.
Let's go.
Cos I don't have a problem, in finding someone else.
Maybe if I make you jealous, you'll finally start to wake up.
You're in tune to what I feel. But too bad you're clueless.
I'm focused but I'm losing control.
And maybe I should start to give you a chance.
Let's go.
I know a couple or two dogs who can talk.
I feel better.
Finally had my alone time. :)
People find it weird that I openly express my need for my 'alone time', But they all know they need it at some point. Besides, I love myself. So naturally, I'd like to spend some quality time with myself. Hee.
Went skating alone and it was so good with the awesome weather. I think I'm really gonna make my money worth this holidays with my skating.
And some issues are really getting on my nerves. How can there be such unappreciative, selfish, self centered and horrible hypocrites like you guys around? No, don't think I'm tryna be smart here by throwing all these beautiful adjectives to describe you guys. Every single word I use really and truly describes you and you and you. Think about it. Bitch.
This is outdated and happened back then, but to think you still have the audacity to continue scolding someone who is elder than you, has a reputable status, responsible and holds a respectable position in the society. And who in the heck do you think you are to criticise her or even talk about her?
I think I heard this coming from you, "You don't know what I went through" You said something like that to feebly defend all the disgusting and low words that you threw to her in your childish and immature anger? Maybe someone should have let you explain yea? Explain all the fucking emotional trauma you went through? Explain how you couldn't get what you want and how fucking frustrating it is to have someone tell you off? Or maybe explain how it should fucking be ok for you to speak rudely to someone else and expect to get away from it?
Damn. Noone gave our dear immature,childish, disgusting and idiotic 20 year old bitch to explain herself.
Think about what you said. Think about what you wrote. This is how your mother raised you? To blame other people's rude behaviour because they do not have a complete family like everyone else has?You must have an awesome mother then. Too bad she has you for her daughter. THINK BITCH.For once, think before you open that trashbox stuck in your face.
If you're physically unattractive, at least try to be beautiful from the inside.
And the last bug on my mind, haiya. I can't even begin to describe how I feel. You really don't matter to me or the rest of us anymore. I can guarantee you that. But if you think that posting statuses on Facebook through your other account that only has your, """"""""CLOSE/TRUE FRIENDS""""""" is going to affect us, then you're really mistaken. No, don't start smiling cos you think that it has affected me and that is why I'm blogging about it. I seriously, swear upon anything, don't give a shit. You wanna know why I'm blogging about you? Hee. Because it amuses me how you try so hard to be bitchy and try to do all these so called 'mean' and 'sarcastic' things online and in reality. Please wake up, you can't be bitchy. You just give off that 'trying too hard' aura. Its a turn off to people who know you well enough. But to satisfy your wonders, I'll tell you this. YES,we are very aware you have 2 facebook accounts. And we also know that....(here comes the hilarious part)
We also know that one facebook account is for people who you don't like whilst the other is not.
Yea, we all laughed at that. :D
I highly doubt the possibility that you have friends who understand or can really accept you for who you are. I doubt the possibility that you have people around you who are "close" to you at the moment who hasn't spoken about you behind your back. I doubt the possibility that you have people around who are "close" to you who will have your back.
So basically, I think, you set up your "close friends" facebook account based on your own insecure assumptions that there are people who really likes you for who you are.
Gee, that's sad.
Then again, you don't really matter so I'm not going to waste so much time on you. You're something like a fly? Not really significant but your presence is always annoyingly there. HaiyaHaiyaHaiya.
Ironically, people I'm referring to here are older than me. Why behave like freaking 12 year olds? I don't know & I don't wanna know.
I wish I wish I can kick you guys away, Far far away.
:)
Finally had my alone time. :)
People find it weird that I openly express my need for my 'alone time', But they all know they need it at some point. Besides, I love myself. So naturally, I'd like to spend some quality time with myself. Hee.
Went skating alone and it was so good with the awesome weather. I think I'm really gonna make my money worth this holidays with my skating.
And some issues are really getting on my nerves. How can there be such unappreciative, selfish, self centered and horrible hypocrites like you guys around? No, don't think I'm tryna be smart here by throwing all these beautiful adjectives to describe you guys. Every single word I use really and truly describes you and you and you. Think about it. Bitch.
This is outdated and happened back then, but to think you still have the audacity to continue scolding someone who is elder than you, has a reputable status, responsible and holds a respectable position in the society. And who in the heck do you think you are to criticise her or even talk about her?
I think I heard this coming from you, "You don't know what I went through" You said something like that to feebly defend all the disgusting and low words that you threw to her in your childish and immature anger? Maybe someone should have let you explain yea? Explain all the fucking emotional trauma you went through? Explain how you couldn't get what you want and how fucking frustrating it is to have someone tell you off? Or maybe explain how it should fucking be ok for you to speak rudely to someone else and expect to get away from it?
Damn. Noone gave our dear immature,childish, disgusting and idiotic 20 year old bitch to explain herself.
Think about what you said. Think about what you wrote. This is how your mother raised you? To blame other people's rude behaviour because they do not have a complete family like everyone else has?You must have an awesome mother then. Too bad she has you for her daughter. THINK BITCH.For once, think before you open that trashbox stuck in your face.
If you're physically unattractive, at least try to be beautiful from the inside.
And the last bug on my mind, haiya. I can't even begin to describe how I feel. You really don't matter to me or the rest of us anymore. I can guarantee you that. But if you think that posting statuses on Facebook through your other account that only has your, """"""""CLOSE/TRUE FRIENDS""""""" is going to affect us, then you're really mistaken. No, don't start smiling cos you think that it has affected me and that is why I'm blogging about it. I seriously, swear upon anything, don't give a shit. You wanna know why I'm blogging about you? Hee. Because it amuses me how you try so hard to be bitchy and try to do all these so called 'mean' and 'sarcastic' things online and in reality. Please wake up, you can't be bitchy. You just give off that 'trying too hard' aura. Its a turn off to people who know you well enough. But to satisfy your wonders, I'll tell you this. YES,we are very aware you have 2 facebook accounts. And we also know that....(here comes the hilarious part)
We also know that one facebook account is for people who you don't like whilst the other is not.
Yea, we all laughed at that. :D
I highly doubt the possibility that you have friends who understand or can really accept you for who you are. I doubt the possibility that you have people around you who are "close" to you at the moment who hasn't spoken about you behind your back. I doubt the possibility that you have people around who are "close" to you who will have your back.
So basically, I think, you set up your "close friends" facebook account based on your own insecure assumptions that there are people who really likes you for who you are.
Gee, that's sad.
Then again, you don't really matter so I'm not going to waste so much time on you. You're something like a fly? Not really significant but your presence is always annoyingly there. HaiyaHaiyaHaiya.
Ironically, people I'm referring to here are older than me. Why behave like freaking 12 year olds? I don't know & I don't wanna know.
I wish I wish I can kick you guys away, Far far away.
:)
Friday, December 10, 2010
I just gotta breathe slow.
I feel so overwhelmed.
I'm going to cry but I can't pinpoint the exact reason as to why I feel like crying.
I just feel unhappy.
I'm not supposed to take it too hard? But isn't that my responsibility?
So do I tell you or do I keep quiet?
Do I just continue scolding and worrying or do I try to put a stop to it once and for all?
Its ridiculous if I think that this is overwhelming. I've yet to come to the real world.
So maybe I should try to look for an alternative. I should. There should be one. Yep.
Insyallah. I'll find a way.
& I've told you before & I'll tell you again,
Don't show me your ego. I already have mine.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Too bad, you can't have the best of both worlds.
As I had mentioned in Facebook,
"If human beings had the capability to think rationally before making every single decision, we would all be perfect. That's the reason for mistakes & that's where learning takes place."
I've accepted the fact that my mind works in mysterious ways and I came up with this whole phrase above whilst I was walking back from school earlier.
My thoughts must have drifted off to whatever that's happening now and it makes sense. I am learning and I guess I will continuously learn. I am just very appreciative about one thing. How people around me knew/guessed that I was taking the wrong step yet they still let me be. It is better that way because I would never listen if someone had reprimanded me from doing what I did before I did what I did. Maybe I need to fall before I know it will be painful. Nevertheless, thank you for listening.
I don't know what you are trying to show by being this way. It doesn't reflect well on you as an individual or as a member of your own sex. I wonder what came over me the other night. This kinda thing always happens and I've never been able to understand why or how. I just had the feeling that this is it. No more of this, no more close ups, no more disturbing..the list goes on. I don't know for sure if it will be no more. But judging from the way things are now, I want it to be no more because I'm thinking through a very emotional perspective. Just looking at all those things that you've been up to, and how you carry yourself, I cannot decide if I should screw you or hug you. Why? I must think rationally before giving an answer because all I can think of now, is, because, you must be an attention seeking flirt who plays around. This is hurtful and it may or may not be true. Like I said, I will have to think rationally before answering that 'why' question. It may take days, or the answer might just come to me on my way to school.
You want the best of both worlds? Not getting it, never will get it, Life is unfair, be a man and deal with it.
Enough of this.
I'm so looking forward to sleeping at home tmr after school. Yay.
XOXO
"If human beings had the capability to think rationally before making every single decision, we would all be perfect. That's the reason for mistakes & that's where learning takes place."
I've accepted the fact that my mind works in mysterious ways and I came up with this whole phrase above whilst I was walking back from school earlier.
My thoughts must have drifted off to whatever that's happening now and it makes sense. I am learning and I guess I will continuously learn. I am just very appreciative about one thing. How people around me knew/guessed that I was taking the wrong step yet they still let me be. It is better that way because I would never listen if someone had reprimanded me from doing what I did before I did what I did. Maybe I need to fall before I know it will be painful. Nevertheless, thank you for listening.
I don't know what you are trying to show by being this way. It doesn't reflect well on you as an individual or as a member of your own sex. I wonder what came over me the other night. This kinda thing always happens and I've never been able to understand why or how. I just had the feeling that this is it. No more of this, no more close ups, no more disturbing..the list goes on. I don't know for sure if it will be no more. But judging from the way things are now, I want it to be no more because I'm thinking through a very emotional perspective. Just looking at all those things that you've been up to, and how you carry yourself, I cannot decide if I should screw you or hug you. Why? I must think rationally before giving an answer because all I can think of now, is, because, you must be an attention seeking flirt who plays around. This is hurtful and it may or may not be true. Like I said, I will have to think rationally before answering that 'why' question. It may take days, or the answer might just come to me on my way to school.
You want the best of both worlds? Not getting it, never will get it, Life is unfair, be a man and deal with it.
Enough of this.
I'm so looking forward to sleeping at home tmr after school. Yay.
XOXO
Monday, December 6, 2010
I'd tell you to fuck off now but that would mean, I would have to talk to you. And I don't wish to, as far as I'm concerned.
Bloody hell.
And to think you could conceal everything and act so natural around me. You think I symphatise? If you don't know me well enough, don't try to fucking manipulate me. Yea, I may appear soft and giving, but try your luck. I'm as egoistic as your sex can be and as hard headed as you can be so forget it, don't even dare to try.
Why did I give you a chance, I don't know. I don't regret anything cos if I did, then it'll mean something mattered. Nothing did. So forget it.Forget you.
Go jump down k. Seriously.
Bloody hell.
And to think you could conceal everything and act so natural around me. You think I symphatise? If you don't know me well enough, don't try to fucking manipulate me. Yea, I may appear soft and giving, but try your luck. I'm as egoistic as your sex can be and as hard headed as you can be so forget it, don't even dare to try.
Why did I give you a chance, I don't know. I don't regret anything cos if I did, then it'll mean something mattered. Nothing did. So forget it.Forget you.
Go jump down k. Seriously.