Your eyes make me shy.

Supposedly, according to my own schedule that I've conjured in my head,I have to study now.
:D

I will soon enough. Send my advanced greetings to Excel and PR and LE.

And you know, everyone makes mistakes right? But not everyone learns from it. I had the silly misconception that everyone analyzes and thinks about probelms as deeply as I do. If something unfair happens, someone treats me coldly, there is an unexpected reaction from a situation or just basically anything negative, I think about it alot. And I mean alot. I analyze every single crook and go over it again and again. I ask questions to people who may be biased or neutral about the situation, I ask questions to myself, I screw myself, I praise myself. And then sooner or later, I'll reach an answer according to my own judgements and my own thinking. I try to be as fair as possible, though it is hard because I'm only human. I have an armor of defense just like everyone else. And if its my mistake, as much as possible, it will be locked into my memory to try not to commit the same thing again. So when I'm confronted with the same situation, I get that goosebumps and try my best to avoid any negativity.
Then again, it does not only happen when I'm confronted with the same situation, it happens when I sense the same situation brewing. Human beings have the sixth sense right?

So, my mistake was that I assumed human beings work that way. But I couldn't be more wrong. For one, I think some people will never learn.

And I presume this is because they are too wrapped up in their own self pity and spend all their time comforting themselves, that they fail to realise the reason for an ugly thing to happen. Yet, they still have the cheek to wonder why? The only difference in their question is, they wonder, "Why must all these bad things happen to my life?"

My other theory I've came up with in my mind is that, some people are too self centered that they think whatever they are doing and whatever they believe in is the right thing. They do not have the time to listen to other perspectives or quite frankly, they don't even want to. So, if other opinions are brought to surface, they counter it so harshly without thinking that these can bring about an ugly scene.
Yet, they still have the cheek to wonder why. And their question goes like, " I don't understand what is his/her problem? He/She does not make sense at all. They don't want to listen."

I know there are a lot more classifications, and honestly, I have yet to learn where I belong to. I don't need anyone to tell me where I belong to. I don't need anyone to tell me why they think I belong here or there. Because, my mind is made up in such a way whereby I'll listen to you, but I won't agree with you unless I learn it for myself.

I was reading a book from Daddy's Ebook earlier and I came across this phrase that I found very logical yet we fail to abide by it.

"Thinking you are right but knowing you may be wrong gives the opportunity to retain what you have but are still open to improve,correct or expand on it."

Makes a lot of sense to me. Anyhoos, its about time I do something.
Toodles.

Everytime I look at you, I get a fierce desire to be lonesome.

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