I’m shocked.

Why must there be a death of someone that I know every year?

I know it’s immature for me to think this way,

That everyone I know and love must live happily ever after.

I guess there’s still that small girl inside of me, wishing for everything to be a happy ending.

I’m sorry I do not know you as much as I should have.

All I know is, you are part of the family, in a way.

And for that reason alone, I feel attached to you.

The adults are all saying, “we should have this, we should have that”

But don’t they know that there isn’t any more point in talking that way?

Don’t they realize that whatever they’re saying are just meaningless words?

Whatever they have promised you have always been empty promises?

They hadn’t learnt the lesson the first time, when he went away.

We were supposed to have come to see you guys.

We were supposed to have spent time with you guys like a real family.

Like how you guys wanted it to be.

But now, it is definitely too late.

I do not think there will be any reason we would ever go there.

And it is funny how sometimes, I imagine myself in the place,

Imagining the place like how you used to describe it.

From time to time, I do remember you and I do see your face in others.

But, I think that’s all I can have.

Who am I kidding?

That’s all I would have.

I love the both of you. Even though..nevermind.
I just do.

Al-Fatihah.

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