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Oh hello. I am Narah and I am 18. Dark chocolates,marshmallows and novels are my favorite things.

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Monday, November 9, 2009

I dont wish to spend my nights this way. Neither do i want you to do so. Insyallah, God will show us the way. As for now, this is the best solution. I dont wish to have any emotional baggage at such a young age. May the good times return once more. And when it does, I'll be more than happy to sincerely talk, laugh,joke and even walk beside you without feeling terrible and afraid that I might just burst into tears at the sight of you doing so. Be careful what you wish for eh. Sometimes, i think that life would have been better if it was left the way it was. But what can i do? Who can I blame? I was young. I still am young. But maturity slowly creeps up on one. And when it does, then one would realise simple matter of fact truths in their lives that they've never noticed before. One would start to question, why must i do this to myself at such a young age and burden myself with probs tt im not supposed to b facing nw? why cant i just worry about clothes and accessories instead of how do i solve this problem with my boyfriend/girlfriend? why cant one just worry about the upcoming proj in sch instead of adapting and trying to accept my boyfriend/girlfriend's flaws,temper tantrums,mood swings etc? and the answer is always simple, as teenagers, i think its safe to say that we would also want to know how it feels like to have someone who adores your every move, accompanies you anywhr, always offer a listening ear, make you laugh, pamper you with gifts, satisfy your needs in every matter, argue with you, show you new things you never knew about, bring you places you've never seen, hold your hand and announce to the world that your the special one,walk beside you, argue with you, laugh at or with you, annoy you. i think the list goes on and on for different ppl with different experiences. i have had all that. Perfection is the only way i can describe him. People i know and even strangers saw tt when i was blind to it. Commitment is a big, HUGE word. Love is an even bigger word. And I'm safely saying, announcing to the world, that i dont understand it and am not prepared for it now. Im at the tender age of 17 and no, i dont want to be prepared for it now. Loving God,Prophet Muhammad s.a.w, my family and friends is the only type of love i can and want to understand now. Insyallah, I'm trying to slowly mend my ways. Its gonna take a lot of time, courage and perseverance, but I want to do it. And by wanting to do it, I'm already halfway there.

toodles.
xoxo.