Its annoying how sometimes, when you want the best for someone else, & they misunderstand your actions, & it all backfires on you, making you the bad guy. Take for example an incident tt jz occured. was sppsed to go out wit mom today. Suddenly, i didnt feel good at all. felt like puking, stomach was doing multiple flips, & it affected my whole mood, didnt felt like going out & didnt want to ruin mom's day with my sour face & sucky attitude due to watever that's happening in my stomach so i told her to go alone cos i felt fcuked up. & there she goes saying that its ok la. u dont have to force yourself to follow me. i can go myself. then merajuk-ed. & i'm like, even if i follow you, i would make the whole day sucky for the both of us, & we'd both be miserable. & btw, im feeling sick!? did she get my point? HELL NO. so now, she's left the house, angry with me. & i just can't be bothered to argue or whatever. let her think whatever she wants to, cos i know tt i wished well, i just didnt want to ruin her day with my sucky mood. sheeeesh. anyways, went to lie down a while after that, fell asleep, & dreamt a stupid horrible dream. i dreamt i actually patched with my ex. yea, & we were at the place we met the very first time. but the only difference between now & the past was tt, NOW,after we'd patched, i felt more IN CONTROL in the relationship. & it felt good. no more listening to whatever he said. it was either my way or nothing at all. haha. so i guess, if i were to ever patch up with him, i would want it to be that way, that'll be the only consolation i'll have. ye la, da ludah abe jilat balik, ish~ haissh, i need to puff a few man. i feel so fcked up & my stomach's topsy turvy once again.
toodles darlings~
PS: OH YEA, CONGRATS TO F FOR PASSING HIS THEORY TEST. WAYYYY TO GOO U!
the most crapped picture. yea,im not smiling, my LOST face holding a skull locket.haha!

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