oooooooooooh.*takes a deep breath*(x2)

ohkay, remember the boy i was so into during 3 quarters of my life in secondary sch? yea. tt idiot who ruined my thoughts yet never fails to make my day. haha.ohkay, its been a long time since i've wrote about him in here. maybe cos i was learning to finally accept things the way it is & maybe,i was trying to be fair to him. he sent me an email today, nope, not a fowarded one, it was something he typed himself while i was otf with him sometime back. he was going on & on about how great it is to have someone like me in his life. but the main sentence that caught my attention was, "I don't want this friendship to ever end." Nah, don't worry,im not soaked in tears or anything. Strangely, i smiled when i saw that sentence.its like, it was there all along,but i was too immature to see it between us. Friends. yea. Friends. woah. i think, if it was say, last year february, i would have been so disappointed & "heartbroken". haha. but now i see it. i wasn't being fair to him by expecting something in return. okay, i must admit, it was his fault for making me feel this way, like, all those bigbig hints & stuff. & guess wad, he's still doing it now. dropping hints. but, NOW, i no longer spend a whole day or week figuring out what he meant. NOW, i just smile to myself, & forget it. seriously,i ain't pulling anyone's leg. & i must say, I am proud of myself to some extent. & i can't imagine how stupid i WAS. but nah, i don't regret anything i did. its jz a learning process:) but now, if,IF he ever wants to take another step between us, i won't easily cave in. I'd sit back & think.
toodles~


I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

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