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Friday, August 19, 2011
If.
I admitted, would it be like before?
I face you, would it be like the scene in my head?
I turned back, would it have been different?
I grabbed your hand that night, would it be like this now?
I leaned on you for forty winks, would it be cherished?
They can take away what we planned but not our yesterday.
I face you, would it be like the scene in my head?
I turned back, would it have been different?
I grabbed your hand that night, would it be like this now?
I leaned on you for forty winks, would it be cherished?
They can take away what we planned but not our yesterday.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Why do we have to grow up?
All of a sudden, I miss my ITE days.
Reaching school at 8 and going to the canteen to get breakfast because we have a 15 minutes grace period.
Messing around with not so important yet important modules and pissing lecturers off.
Doing stupid things with the girls on the last floor of the block and ending up with dearest Edmund. And it wasn't the last time either we ended up with him. :)
Wearing the lanyard & making a fuss about friends who thinks wearing the lanyard is a big fussy thing :)
Walking around aimlessly in school & going to the furthest toilet just to waste time away.
Getting locked out of classes because I came late.
Running around the dreaded school carpark & jogging track at the back.
Getting stressed up over projects with impossible deadlines.
Getting stressed up about bitches in class. Actually, that's only one bitch we're talking about.
Laughing about this person and that person.
Having all the nicknames for all our eye candies. I miss seeing Dinosaur :(
Dressing up for Halloween.
Dressing up for dances.
Dressing up for art exhibitions.
Acting out stories.
Telling stories.
Making puppets.
Setting up learning corners.
Having our own "stomp" performance with pails.
Camping out in school.
Puffing in school because the security guard is snoring his ass off.
Puffing outside the school gate and getting sabotaged by jealous people.
Getting sent out of school camp.
I still laugh at the memory of that one.
And the people I've met here...
This two years doesn't seem so wasted after all.
If you look at it from one perspective.
I wanna go back to those days. Badly.
Reaching school at 8 and going to the canteen to get breakfast because we have a 15 minutes grace period.
Messing around with not so important yet important modules and pissing lecturers off.
Doing stupid things with the girls on the last floor of the block and ending up with dearest Edmund. And it wasn't the last time either we ended up with him. :)
Wearing the lanyard & making a fuss about friends who thinks wearing the lanyard is a big fussy thing :)
Walking around aimlessly in school & going to the furthest toilet just to waste time away.
Getting locked out of classes because I came late.
Running around the dreaded school carpark & jogging track at the back.
Getting stressed up over projects with impossible deadlines.
Getting stressed up about bitches in class. Actually, that's only one bitch we're talking about.
Laughing about this person and that person.
Having all the nicknames for all our eye candies. I miss seeing Dinosaur :(
Dressing up for Halloween.
Dressing up for dances.
Dressing up for art exhibitions.
Acting out stories.
Telling stories.
Making puppets.
Setting up learning corners.
Having our own "stomp" performance with pails.
Camping out in school.
Puffing in school because the security guard is snoring his ass off.
Puffing outside the school gate and getting sabotaged by jealous people.
Getting sent out of school camp.
I still laugh at the memory of that one.
And the people I've met here...
This two years doesn't seem so wasted after all.
If you look at it from one perspective.
I wanna go back to those days. Badly.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
If.
If you just realise what I just realise, we'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other.
But its not the same, it'll never be the same, if you don't feel it too.
I feel like I'm being bombarded with so much of negativity, I could just curl up and cry.
Ever thankful for people who cares to listen and be there. I really am.
And I just realised there are far more bigger things that can determine your happiness than the normal issues we usually think plays a major part in our everyday lives.
But if I had a wish, I'd wish I could rewind everything & realise it sooner instead of now, when it kinda seems too late.
I wish I could hold on tightly to the ones who were there in front of me instead of doing the opposite.
These are all wishes.
Reality check.
It takes two hands to clap.
It takes realisation to hit the spot.
Goodnight.
But its not the same, it'll never be the same, if you don't feel it too.
I feel like I'm being bombarded with so much of negativity, I could just curl up and cry.
Ever thankful for people who cares to listen and be there. I really am.
And I just realised there are far more bigger things that can determine your happiness than the normal issues we usually think plays a major part in our everyday lives.
But if I had a wish, I'd wish I could rewind everything & realise it sooner instead of now, when it kinda seems too late.
I wish I could hold on tightly to the ones who were there in front of me instead of doing the opposite.
These are all wishes.
Reality check.
It takes two hands to clap.
It takes realisation to hit the spot.
Goodnight.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Okay, I got it about the priority and option shit I always read about.
I just didn't know I'll be facing it.
The feeling sucks.
Maybe I deserve it or maybe its just not meant to be that way.
Fuck it.
I just didn't know I'll be facing it.
The feeling sucks.
Maybe I deserve it or maybe its just not meant to be that way.
Fuck it.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Spend my nights with you please.
To care is important.
It makes a difference in the importance of an individual in one's life.
There are those who care, and are valued,
And there are those who never seem to care, and are just not important to someone.
I care about some people, but I find it difficult to care about those who do not care about themselves or me.
I'm only human.
It makes a difference in the importance of an individual in one's life.
There are those who care, and are valued,
And there are those who never seem to care, and are just not important to someone.
I care about some people, but I find it difficult to care about those who do not care about themselves or me.
I'm only human.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Stains on the cheek.
Seems like the week will get worse as time goes by.
I'm most affected by today. Yes, I'm a selfish and self centered girl who is such a disappointment.
Maybe nothing I do will ever be enough.
Then maybe I just don't want to give a fuck anymore.
And the biggest disappointment is knowing the one I counted on to be there is no longer there.
Human nature to depend on others without realising it. Its noone's fault really.
It just happens.
I'm most affected by today. Yes, I'm a selfish and self centered girl who is such a disappointment.
Maybe nothing I do will ever be enough.
Then maybe I just don't want to give a fuck anymore.
And the biggest disappointment is knowing the one I counted on to be there is no longer there.
Human nature to depend on others without realising it. Its noone's fault really.
It just happens.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Bloody hell.
Some people need to understand where they're coming from and where they stand in the society before thinking they can so easily judge others.
Don't get into my personal thoughts and question them.
Some people need to understand where they're coming from and where they stand in the society before thinking they can so easily judge others.
Don't get into my personal thoughts and question them.
We can live like Jack & Sally if we want.
You can always find me.
We'll have Halloween.
And in the night, we'll wish this never ends.
The smiles, the laughters. The fighting, the fussing.
We'll wish things were not this way.
I wish we had another time.
I thought the end was before this. I didn't realise it'll be now.
Its all fun and games right.
:)
You're very much missed.
We'll have Halloween.
And in the night, we'll wish this never ends.
The smiles, the laughters. The fighting, the fussing.
We'll wish things were not this way.
I wish we had another time.
I thought the end was before this. I didn't realise it'll be now.
Its all fun and games right.
:)
You're very much missed.
Monday, May 16, 2011
There will always be that bitch/bitches somewhere in your life. If there isn't then maybe its you :)
Anger is such a scary emotion.
It blinds everything and your object of hatred becomes someone that you don't even know, just hate.
And your actions are that of another's.
And the words you speak are that of another's.
Why do we have to feel anger when its such a scary emotion?
Why the hell am I talking about anger.
I'm a happy happy girl.
:)
When I'm not angry.
Heeeeee.
It blinds everything and your object of hatred becomes someone that you don't even know, just hate.
And your actions are that of another's.
And the words you speak are that of another's.
Why do we have to feel anger when its such a scary emotion?
Why the hell am I talking about anger.
I'm a happy happy girl.
:)
When I'm not angry.
Heeeeee.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Feels like there's no getting through to you.
Sometimes, it feels like you're just an extra part of my life that's supposed to important.
But you're not. Or at least you don't make yourself that much of an importance to me because you'll always have better things to do.
I did have better things to do than to wait for you.
And now I think I will start finding for better things to do than to wait.
Other people know me better than you ever will.
Maybe not my temper.
But the personal things, my fears, my tears, my laughs, my smiles, my frustrations,my opinions.
Yea, other people, I can name a few, will know me better than you ever will.
There's supposed to be more to this. But if this is what you're willing to give, than I shouldn't be too eager to take what little you have to give.
There will always be that point of time when you just want to fuck it.
Fuck all the reasons.
and all the apologises.
and the same old cycle.
And I've reached that point.
But you're not. Or at least you don't make yourself that much of an importance to me because you'll always have better things to do.
I did have better things to do than to wait for you.
And now I think I will start finding for better things to do than to wait.
Other people know me better than you ever will.
Maybe not my temper.
But the personal things, my fears, my tears, my laughs, my smiles, my frustrations,my opinions.
Yea, other people, I can name a few, will know me better than you ever will.
There's supposed to be more to this. But if this is what you're willing to give, than I shouldn't be too eager to take what little you have to give.
There will always be that point of time when you just want to fuck it.
Fuck all the reasons.
and all the apologises.
and the same old cycle.
And I've reached that point.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Jihad is not a holy war. Where's that in the worship? -Lupe Fiasco.
Words I Never Said.
:)
Spot on.
Words I Never Said.
:)
Spot on.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Happy mommies day.
When you do not show thanks to the most important woman in your life,
When you choose to spend time with your friends,
When you think she should know you love her no matter what,
When you believe that this is a commercialised day that is over rated and fake,
and when you do not do anything at all.
But when you'd rather plan an elaborate surprise for your girlfriend,
when you'd rather spend time discussing with your buds about the perfect gift for your anniversary.
When you'd make sure she knows you're there every day and night for her.
When you carefully plan a perfect date and the wonderful places you can bring her to.
That's when you should know there's something wrong with you.
Nuff said.
When you choose to spend time with your friends,
When you think she should know you love her no matter what,
When you believe that this is a commercialised day that is over rated and fake,
and when you do not do anything at all.
But when you'd rather plan an elaborate surprise for your girlfriend,
when you'd rather spend time discussing with your buds about the perfect gift for your anniversary.
When you'd make sure she knows you're there every day and night for her.
When you carefully plan a perfect date and the wonderful places you can bring her to.
That's when you should know there's something wrong with you.
Nuff said.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Why no love?
And have you noticed how much of hate there is in the world nowadays? People hating here and there. Hating muslims.And its not just a small part, it seems global. The world seems to have come together to hate anything that's got to do with this religion.
Bloody terrorists hating people of other races, or what they've termed as "infidels". So now, everyone hates muslims because it seems like we hate these "infidels" and plan on getting rid of each and every one of them from the world. I've always wondered what they actually wanted to achieve by doing all these bombings and making meaningless accusations to the rest of the world. Aren't they making the people of their religion, their so called "brothers and sisters" live in a harder way? Getting ostracized, humiliated and insulted from the world? Why create a meaningless and unnecessary chaotic environment for Muslims when we have already begun to live in peace with one another since the prophet's time? Wasn't the struggles our ancestors went through to spread the religion difficult enough? Wasn't there enough blood shed and torture went through? So when the water's finally calm, why start a one sided fight once again? I wish I can meet these people and talk to them. I have so many questions in my head for them. I hate them, I hate their attitude and narrow minded way of thinking. I hate the way they twist the words from the Quran and claim that we should get rid of "infidels". I hate the way they poison the minds of young boys who could have had bright futures but are instead holding guns and being suicide bombers. There's no doubt about how I feel about these kind of ugly people. Yet I wish to meet them. Don't you? Curious.
And then comes the people who hate the whole religion and people of these religion because of these animals I mentioned above. Why don't they understand how different the two groups of people are? Why hate the whole religion when only a small amount of people are the extremists? Why hate on the innocents outside who are just following the religion they believe in and love and what their ancestors believed in for generations. Everyone has their own views on the world. Either you believe in God or you don't. So why not treat a muslim in that way, "He/she is just another person in the world who believes in islam and its teachings." Done, right?
I've been given an evil look by a Caucasion in the mrt once because I told her I'm a muslim. No joke. She moved away from me and alighted at the next station.
This lady came up to me out of nowhere and asked me if I knew Mother Mary existed and if I believed in her. I told her I'm a muslim. And then that happened.
Jeez.
I may not be a perfect muslim but I still am one. Of course I'll be curious to get into the minds of these haters.
Sometimes, even though we're in the age where technology has advanced so much since the past, the minds of human beings are still as narrow and old as the dinosaur age.
Goodnight.
Bloody terrorists hating people of other races, or what they've termed as "infidels". So now, everyone hates muslims because it seems like we hate these "infidels" and plan on getting rid of each and every one of them from the world. I've always wondered what they actually wanted to achieve by doing all these bombings and making meaningless accusations to the rest of the world. Aren't they making the people of their religion, their so called "brothers and sisters" live in a harder way? Getting ostracized, humiliated and insulted from the world? Why create a meaningless and unnecessary chaotic environment for Muslims when we have already begun to live in peace with one another since the prophet's time? Wasn't the struggles our ancestors went through to spread the religion difficult enough? Wasn't there enough blood shed and torture went through? So when the water's finally calm, why start a one sided fight once again? I wish I can meet these people and talk to them. I have so many questions in my head for them. I hate them, I hate their attitude and narrow minded way of thinking. I hate the way they twist the words from the Quran and claim that we should get rid of "infidels". I hate the way they poison the minds of young boys who could have had bright futures but are instead holding guns and being suicide bombers. There's no doubt about how I feel about these kind of ugly people. Yet I wish to meet them. Don't you? Curious.
And then comes the people who hate the whole religion and people of these religion because of these animals I mentioned above. Why don't they understand how different the two groups of people are? Why hate the whole religion when only a small amount of people are the extremists? Why hate on the innocents outside who are just following the religion they believe in and love and what their ancestors believed in for generations. Everyone has their own views on the world. Either you believe in God or you don't. So why not treat a muslim in that way, "He/she is just another person in the world who believes in islam and its teachings." Done, right?
I've been given an evil look by a Caucasion in the mrt once because I told her I'm a muslim. No joke. She moved away from me and alighted at the next station.
This lady came up to me out of nowhere and asked me if I knew Mother Mary existed and if I believed in her. I told her I'm a muslim. And then that happened.
Jeez.
I may not be a perfect muslim but I still am one. Of course I'll be curious to get into the minds of these haters.
Sometimes, even though we're in the age where technology has advanced so much since the past, the minds of human beings are still as narrow and old as the dinosaur age.
Goodnight.
I bet you wake up in the morning & you kiss yourself.
Its so easy to feel disappointed.
So easy to feel like everything's going the wrong way and everything's gone.
Its so easy to find the fault in others.
Easier to see the faults of people we love rather than look in the mirror to see the fault of our reflections.
Negativity is so easy to come by.
I need positive vibes nownownow. I need "spontaneous,let's go now!" attitude.
All I'm getting now is "there's always tmrw."
Its just me. I have a problem with myself. I need a doctorrrrrr.
I miss playing snake on hp.
Baah.
So easy to feel like everything's going the wrong way and everything's gone.
Its so easy to find the fault in others.
Easier to see the faults of people we love rather than look in the mirror to see the fault of our reflections.
Negativity is so easy to come by.
I need positive vibes nownownow. I need "spontaneous,let's go now!" attitude.
All I'm getting now is "there's always tmrw."
Its just me. I have a problem with myself. I need a doctorrrrrr.
I miss playing snake on hp.
Baah.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I think there's something wrong with me.
They seem to think so. I can't obviously see if there's any change. Maybe not yet.
Maybe I should wait and see.
That's a lot of waiting I've been doing.
Busybusybusy this week. Finally.
Toodles.
They seem to think so. I can't obviously see if there's any change. Maybe not yet.
Maybe I should wait and see.
That's a lot of waiting I've been doing.
Busybusybusy this week. Finally.
Toodles.
Monday, March 28, 2011
I'm getting tired of it. Fucking tired.
Bloody hell.
Bloody hell.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Pieces of me.
A friend of mine never fails to amaze me with his resilience and willpower.
Sometimes, when little unfortunate incidents occur in our lives, we get worked up over it and create a huge fuss on how unfair life is treating us and how everyone else always has it easier and never has to go through this shit we're going through. I don't have to point fingers at anyone, personally, even I need reminders every now and then about this. Yes, at times I do feel like life's unfair and everyone else is living so happily. But I still need to be reminded of the fact that not everyone is this way. If I'm in this position, there'll always be someone lower, who's going through a lot more shit than I am and still not complaining. We tend be unappreciative of the things we have in life and take it for granted because we know it'll always be there. I'm guilty of that. I know a lot of people guilty of that. And maybe its just us humans. We just have that set of mentality.
And my friend, always coming and going, never fails to impress me with this. Make me sit back and think for a moment. How can someone go through so much and still wish to try to make things better for himself? Where does all that determination come from? Granted, I cannot judge him fully because I'm unaware of his flaws. Or maybe I'm just overlooking any flaws because at least, he's making something work in his life despite everything around him.
This is random, but talking to him always makes me think. Seriously. haha.
And red is in now.
Goodnight :)
Sometimes, when little unfortunate incidents occur in our lives, we get worked up over it and create a huge fuss on how unfair life is treating us and how everyone else always has it easier and never has to go through this shit we're going through. I don't have to point fingers at anyone, personally, even I need reminders every now and then about this. Yes, at times I do feel like life's unfair and everyone else is living so happily. But I still need to be reminded of the fact that not everyone is this way. If I'm in this position, there'll always be someone lower, who's going through a lot more shit than I am and still not complaining. We tend be unappreciative of the things we have in life and take it for granted because we know it'll always be there. I'm guilty of that. I know a lot of people guilty of that. And maybe its just us humans. We just have that set of mentality.
And my friend, always coming and going, never fails to impress me with this. Make me sit back and think for a moment. How can someone go through so much and still wish to try to make things better for himself? Where does all that determination come from? Granted, I cannot judge him fully because I'm unaware of his flaws. Or maybe I'm just overlooking any flaws because at least, he's making something work in his life despite everything around him.
This is random, but talking to him always makes me think. Seriously. haha.
And red is in now.
Goodnight :)
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Take your shirt off.
I don't understand my mind.
Do you understand yours?
Thought about it before?
Irrational, hasty, negative. Is that just one part of the whole thing? So many things in my head. And I have at least one negative opinion about one of it.
I think I'm a difficult girl. I don't think, I know.
:S
And someone's always there, random or not, to give the reassurance and open up a different view on the situation. How long more do I have to rely on these.
Guess I'm still learning. And the people here who gets the trash whilst I'm learning just bears with it, or takes it in stride. Loved.
The best part about that night, just having you close and the silence. That's the best.
Talk about someone who "never" sleeps outside. Pfffffft. XD
Gotta get up and gogogogogogogo. I'm always holding back even when I want to do so many things. Its annoying. The word 'lazy' is a big part of my life now. Sadly.
Baah.
Do you understand yours?
Thought about it before?
Irrational, hasty, negative. Is that just one part of the whole thing? So many things in my head. And I have at least one negative opinion about one of it.
I think I'm a difficult girl. I don't think, I know.
:S
And someone's always there, random or not, to give the reassurance and open up a different view on the situation. How long more do I have to rely on these.
Guess I'm still learning. And the people here who gets the trash whilst I'm learning just bears with it, or takes it in stride. Loved.
The best part about that night, just having you close and the silence. That's the best.
Talk about someone who "never" sleeps outside. Pfffffft. XD
Gotta get up and gogogogogogogo. I'm always holding back even when I want to do so many things. Its annoying. The word 'lazy' is a big part of my life now. Sadly.
Baah.
Monday, March 14, 2011
Just like the nose, stomachs can have flu too.
This is not how I intended to spend my holidays.
I've thrown up so many times, she told me I look so calm when I threw up last night. Yea, I'm used to my stomach rejecting food. I just hate the throwing up part.
I've got a reason to take my time with smaller portions of food if I intend to keep the food in my stomach longer.
Haha.
I can't wait to feel better and go out with everyone. I don't think I'll be able to spend two weeks not eating properly :(
At times when I feel better, I remember that doctor saying that even though I feel like I've fully recovered, I will still be down with this stomach flu. :(
Did I mention I've lost 2kgs in about 1 and a half day?
I don't want this to drag, I wanna go out and eat normally.
Baah.
I've thrown up so many times, she told me I look so calm when I threw up last night. Yea, I'm used to my stomach rejecting food. I just hate the throwing up part.
I've got a reason to take my time with smaller portions of food if I intend to keep the food in my stomach longer.
Haha.
I can't wait to feel better and go out with everyone. I don't think I'll be able to spend two weeks not eating properly :(
At times when I feel better, I remember that doctor saying that even though I feel like I've fully recovered, I will still be down with this stomach flu. :(
Did I mention I've lost 2kgs in about 1 and a half day?
I don't want this to drag, I wanna go out and eat normally.
Baah.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Jet it now.
You told me if I beat the high score, I'll have a chance. And I did, so that's how it started.
To remember the exact words and the situation, its totally unexpected of you. Made me smile in the dark at that hour.
Then came that silly dream. It isn't you, I don't believe it, I won't actually. The reality is what matters.
I still wonder what my favourite children are up to in school. I miss the hugs and kisses from them. I miss hugging and kissing them. I miss their stinky and sweet smell. I miss the colleagues. I miss the aunty.
It maybe part of a memory now, a good and bad one. Let's just see what the future holds.
Had a gooood time with all of them at school. Missed them all.
Now, who's up for some shopping, picnic and photo takings?
:D
To remember the exact words and the situation, its totally unexpected of you. Made me smile in the dark at that hour.
Then came that silly dream. It isn't you, I don't believe it, I won't actually. The reality is what matters.
I still wonder what my favourite children are up to in school. I miss the hugs and kisses from them. I miss hugging and kissing them. I miss their stinky and sweet smell. I miss the colleagues. I miss the aunty.
It maybe part of a memory now, a good and bad one. Let's just see what the future holds.
Had a gooood time with all of them at school. Missed them all.
Now, who's up for some shopping, picnic and photo takings?
:D